Saturday, August 31, 2013

{iPhone Rewind} :: August

We officially experienced the Dog Days of August. The seemingly mild summer disappeared as the 100+ degree weather settled in...

This is what Sasha does when she is pouting. She hides behind the curtains as if to say, "I'm ignoring you; don't talk to me." Mike is right. She can be such a Diva.

When Nothing Bundt Cakes shows up at work with free bundtinis, it's hard to say no to these bite sized treats! This red velvet was a nice afternoon pick-me-up :)

A sweet lady in our home group is working on a huge work project, so we offered to take her kids to their juggling practice so she could work late. I got to spend the evening watching them do all kinds of fun tricks- juggling, rope twirling, plate spinning, etc. Love these sweet kids!

Our sweet friend Becca had her baby shower, and I was so excited that I got to be there. She might be just about the cutest pregnant lady I know :) We're so excited for her and Drew, and can't wait to meet sweet Evelyn June {don't you just LOVE that name??}

We got to spend a Saturday with Ben and Lindsay at Top Golf. The weather was unbelievably gorgeous, and we had such a great time hanging out!

I have been wanting a snow cone all summer and we finally had one! We tried one in our neighborhood and found out it has been in business for 34 years. Tiger Blood is the way to go :)

We had a second fundraising night at Spoons Garage in downtown McKinney. We had a great turnout, and it was amazing to see the relationships we have formed with so many.

So my beautiful friend Austen won Mrs. Texas this year. And then she won Mrs. America. Because she is awesome. Congrats sweet friend...go share the name of Jesus!

We got to go on a double date with the Rays to a Rough Riders game. We love these sweet friends, and any time we get to spend with them!



Friday, August 30, 2013

When God Gives You a "No"

 
I came across this quote yesterday, and I really felt like it was fitting for where we are right now. This summer has been really busy and somewhat difficult in a number of ways. Don't get me wrong; we have seen a lot of encouraging things through our church plant. We have seen a lot of spiritual growth in individual members, and we are excited about the months ahead as we settle back into our normal rhythms for the fall and gear up for a possible launch in the winter. And God has been faithful {as He always is} to provide for us.
 
But it feels like we have been in a season of hearing "no" which has really started to wear on both of us. Whether it was not the answers we wanted to hear about insurance/medication cost, Mike's job not yielding the results that we feel match his efforts, or me battling sickness off and on that has resulted in more "not well" days than "well" ones...it has just been a difficult few months on a personal level.
 
We were talking this week about how we know the right things to say to ourselves: God works all things out for our good. He has a better plan for us than we have for ourselves. He will provide. He just wants our faithful obedience. But in seasons like these, it is really hard to believe those things to be true. We know they are, but for some reason the encouragement that comes from those truths takes a little longer to fill and nourish our souls.
 
Through the frustration and the disappointment, Mike has really led us well in still giving praise to Jesus for who He is and how He takes care of us. We may not understand the how or why behind the "no's" but it's important for us to continue reminding ourselves of the above truths. Just because they are harder to see/believe in the midst of our circumstances doesn't make them any less true. God is still good.
 
Today, I take comfort in the above quote. I say "thank you, Jesus" for knowing what's best for us and protecting us from less than that.
 

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Baylor Move-In Day...10 Years Ago

One of my bosses was off work today, moving his son in at Baylor. Ten years ago, I was the excited freshman moving into North Russell Hall. My whole life was before me, and I was excited about the adventures to come. I LOVED my time at Baylor and often feel nostalgic for those college days...

Move-In Day at Baylor 10 years ago was nothing less than semi-controlled chaos; it was every freshman and their parent for themselves. My poor parents. Because I lived on campus, I put them through 4 move-ins and 4 move outs. Thanks mom and dad! :)

Sadly, I don't have any pictures from move-in day...those were the days before I had a digital camera and before there were camera phones haha. But this photo is from freshman year. 

Megan {on the right} was my roommate, and Nicki {on the left} was my neighbor. My first intro to Nicki was her dad nailing into our shared wall at 7am in the morning :)

After my freshman year, I became a Community Leader {which is Baylor's version of the R.A.} which automatically made me part of the move-in crew. So I was a part of many a move-in day festivities. I saw the good, the bad, and the ugly ;)

Move-In 2005

Move-In 2006

Now they have designated days, drop-off routes/maps, more sophisticated move-in crews...much more organized for sure. Thinking about my boss moving in his son got me thinking about my time at Baylor. I have great memories from my college days. I loved my professors and my classes. I loved living on campus. I loved going to the football and basketball games. I loved chapel, Dr Pepper Hour, Diadeloso, Sing, Christmas on 5th Street, and visiting the bears. 

I learned a lot in college, and not just in my classes. I learned more about myself, who I was and who God was shaping me to be. I gained more confidence and began the steps toward learning to step outside my comfort zone. I learned how to serve and think of others before myself. I grew closer to Jesus during college. I made lifelong friends.

I am so thankful for the time I had at Baylor. I will always be proud of my alma mater. Sic 'em Bears!


Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Crohn's Chronicles :: Humira Cost Provision REVISION

So I needed to update this post. Today I am struggling because the FANTASTIC news I thought I had received was well-intentioned, but sadly misinformed.


Right before we wrapped up my 6-month check-up, I decided to ask my doctor what my options were for paying for my medication. With the cost of Humira going up, I knew I needed to have a game plan for how I was going to tackle a lifetime of inevitable increases. You may or may not know, but there simply are no generic brands available for Humira {or Cimzia, it's competitor on the market}. Because they are considered "biologics" they fall under different laws/regulations than other medications. Unless these laws are changed, there may never be generic versions. So those who require these types of medications may always face the rising cost of "designer drugs."

My doctor asked if I had insurance: yes, and it pays 70% of the cost {so thankful}. He asked if I was enrolled in the Humira Protection Plan: yes, but I was told the benefits ran out a few months ago, so while they will cover a little less than 70% of that remaining amount {very thankful, for sure}, I am still left with a fairly high out-of-pocket expense every month {we're talking hundreds. per month.} And that doesn't account for the cost of check ups, blood work, vaccinations, etc. He referred me to his nurse, because he thought it sounded really high but wasn't sure.

Long story short...when I told her what I was paying, she told me I should only be paying $5.00 per month. 5 dollars. 1 Mr. Lincoln. When I asked her about the benefit running out, she said that I just sign up for a new card.  Unfortunately there are always restrictions. It sounded too good to be true, and it was. Unfortunately, our out-of-pocket after what insurance pays exceeds a $500 maximum that the Humira Protection Plan will apply each month. So I am still responsible for the balance, which is way higher {remember. hundreds. per month} than a $5 co-pay. And you cannot just sign up for a new card. You get one card only.

We have readjusted our budget, making major cutbacks to accommodate the crazy expense, and we were paying too much the entire time? I wanted to hug her right there in the exam room. Inside I was holding back the tears, screaming "do you have any idea what this means???" I believe so much in how much Humira has helped me that I would gladly pay more than $5 for the medication {we were doing what we needed to make it work}. But there is simply no reason to pay more than you should if there is assistance available. And it's comforting to know that I have access to affordable treatment for Crohn's. That may not always be the case, but for someone who is looking at a lifetime commitment of managing the disease, every little bit {for however long} helps. We will still need to continue our cutbacks to accommodate this crazy expense because I still believe in how much Humira has helped me. And unfortunately, my health is dependent on it. Because of my particular situation with my insurance company, they mandate which pharmacy at which I fill my prescription. So I am stuck {for now} with the price the pharmacy has contracted with Humira. Not all insurance companies mandate a particular pharmacy, but rather allow you shop around. If this is the case for you, SHOP around. The lower the total cost of the drug, the lower your out-of-pocket could be.

I still LOVE my doctor and am still thankful for his willingness to talk through all of my crazy questions/thoughts/ concerns/fears. And I am still so thankful for his nurse, who has done a lot of leg work on my behalf to make sure I have access to affordable care. She may not have had all of the information, but she was willing to go to bat for me, for which I am grateful. At least I may be able to help a patient in the future have better information. I am also thankful for a job whose leadership works hard to keep our premiums low and our benefits helpful. We recently switched insurance providers at work, which always instills a little fear of whether or not my doctors and medication will be covered. But the Lord has even taken care of that for us, even placing my medication on a better coverage tier, which will help with increases in the future. They told me that all injectables are rejected under our new plan, but that if I have a prior letter of authorization from my doctor, they will cover it. They also said that I can choose my pharmacy, which means I can find one with a better pricing contract with Humira {i.e. lower cost}. My plea for prayer is that this is really the case, and I'm not just getting the run around again. They could only provide me information under a dummy account, but we won't know for sure until I am an official member under the plan. {Kind of makes it hard to shop around for an insurance plan that makes sense for you, doesn't it? Sigh.}

I just see this as God's incredible provision. He knew I would be diagnosed with Crohn's, and when we thought we had to pay the higher prices, He provided. When we were stretched thin in our budget and didn't see how we could make it work, He provided. When we were not sure how things would be covered, He provided. Again, I realize things could change in a moment, but I know that somehow, some way, He will always provide. In the midst of the frustration and disappointment of the changed news, I am repeating these words to myself today. It's just as true now as when I thought this had been resolved and the news was better. My raise took affect this month, which was one of our Ebenezer Stones for how He provided when the total cost of Humira {and thus our out-of-pocket expense} went up last month. God is still good and still worthy of praise. And I know He will provide. Even if the provision looks different than what I wanted.


Friday, August 16, 2013

High Five for Friday!

{one} Tuesday night's Bible study was such an encouragement to my heart. One, because we had 8 women studying the Word in our living room. Remember when there were only 2 or 3?? And two, because of the discussion and study itself. This week we were in Exodus 13-14, specifically where the nation of Israel comes to the Red Sea and the Lord shows His mighty hand by rescuing the people from the hands of the Egyptians. We see that the Lord determines from the outset to take His people on the "scenic route" to the Promised Land, for their good and His glory. One of the application questions that really hit home was "Have you ever been taken on the 'scenic route' by God before seeing His promises fulfilled? How would your understanding of His character and promises have been different if He had taken you by the shortest route?" I often feel I am on the 'scenic route,' wondering what God is doing. And yet the intimacy of learning more of the character of my God through those times is so sweet. I am so thankful He allows me to see glimpses of His plans, ever encouraging me along my journey closer to His heart.

{two} Last night was our last in the summer series of Faith & Culture: Where is God in Natural Disasters? Mike does such a great job talking through these topics, helping us understand our cultural moment and how our faith fits into all of it. We had our best turnout yet, and we are excited to continue these sessions through the Fall. It's a great way for believers to come together and think critically, as well as bring the gospel to the public square {literally}.
  
{three} My mom emailed me this week and told me she had a coupon for a purse at DSW and that I had no choice but to pick one out. Since I wasn't allowed to say no to this sweet gift, I got to choose a new purse for the fall. How fun is that?? She said that since the boys get to go hunting, we get to buy purses :)
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{four} So we are enjoying a high of 90 and a low of 64. In August. In Texas. While I am sad that we're getting closer to leaving the warmer summer days, the cooler weather has been a nice change of pace from the triple digit temps. And it's a reminder of the changing seasons and the coming of Fall!

{five} Tonight I am looking forward to hanging out with our sweet neighbors, as we enjoy dinner and watch the second half of the History Channel's Bible series together. And tomorrow morning I get to have breakfast with Laura. Thank you, Lord for sweet friends and times to catch up!