Thursday, March 22, 2018

17 Weeks

Sorry for the weird, washed out photo...super sunny day, and I was in a hurry :)

How far along? 17 weeks
Days since transfer: 100 days
Total weight gain: +4.5
Maternity clothes? Does it count if the clothing is not maternity, but I wore it when I was pregnant with twins?? Haha! I have realized that I got better at collecting stretchy, comfortable clothing during my twin pregnancy and after Eli and Maddie were I definitely have more give in my "regular" clothes :)  
Sleep: I have slept better this week...I am sure that is more due to my exhaustion at the end of the day since we dropped down to 1 nap a day in our house. This preggo twin mama is TIRED haha.
Best moment of the week: Dropping down to 1 nap with relative ease...maybe? Haha I am still 50/50 on this. I miss the break in the morning while Eli and Maddie nap, and it definitely takes up more energy to keep them occupied for such a long stretch of time. But I am excited about our schedule finally opening up a bit more to go do some fun things in the mornings!
Cravings: Nothing specific this week. Though I smelled some onion rings the other day, and my mouth almost starting watering because they smelled SO good. I don't even like onion rings! haha
Symptoms: So I don't feel big yet {at least my bump doesn't feel as heavy...since there's only 1 baby in there!}, but I think I look big. I can definitely tell my bump is sitting differently. With the twins, my bump was just out there and big all over. With this little guy, my bump just sticks straight out {and maybe just a little farther}. But it's a strange little bump, right smack in the middle of my abdomen, kind of like a tiny bowl or ball is hidden under my belly button :)  But as far as actual symptoms go, I have had some continued on/off spotting, but nothing that has me overly concerned. Otherwise, I am feeling pretty good!
Looking forward to: Fun time with the cousins this weekend, and finally getting into a good groove with our new 1 nap schedule! 


Size of baby? About the size of a large order of fries or a toilet paper roll
Development: His ears are fully formed, and body fat is beginning to form. He is practicing his sucking and swallowing skills, and fingerprints are beginning to form as well.
Heartbeat: His heart is now regulated by his brain {so no more random beats}
Movement: Still not feeling anything consistent. I know it may still be a few weeks before I feel those beautiful kicks, but I am definitely ready to feel him now!
Gender Predictions? It's a BOY! :)

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Searching for Spring

I have had the privilege of being on several of Christine Hoover's launch teams, and I was so excited to be chosen to be a part of launching her newest book Searching for Spring: How God Makes All Things Beautiful in Time. When she sent the blurb about the book she was working on, I knew it was one I would want to read, so I went ahead and pre-ordered it, even before she asked for volunteers for the launch team!

Christine has an incredible gift of graciously expressing deep truths. She writes from her soul and really seeks to encourage others through her writing. She uses a perfect blend of prose, personal stories, and Scripture to share the deep truths. I often picture her sitting down with me, over a cup of coffee, sharing her heart and all the Lord is teaching her. I know that is her desire in her writing, and it certainly comes through in her books.

I have to put a disclaimer on my review for this book. I honestly struggled with this book at first and had to start over. I had a preconceived idea in my head, so when the book wasn't fitting that idea, I just had a hard time following. She breaks the book down into the 4 seasons: summer, fall, winter, spring. So in my mind, I was thinking her analogies would follow those seasons. In some ways she does {particularly in the winter section, which is the majority of the book}. But when there were hardly any summer analogies, and she was talking about winter in the fall section and fall in the winter section...I admit I was frustrated and confused. And it almost ruined the book for me.

BUT...I decided to start over, throwing the seasons out the window. Instead, I just read her words as they came, instead of trying to see how they related to the seasons. And it was SO MUCH BETTER. So while I wish perhaps the sections were not labeled by the seasons {or perhaps the seasonal analogies flowed a little better}, I am so glad that I didn't give up. I know Christine is a tried and true author, so I knew not to let my struggles keep me from gleaning the wisdom she offers. 

So that being said...forget about the seasons altogether and just read the words as they come, and I promise you will not be disappointed. 

Christine opens her book, admitting that we are all looking for beauty in a broken world. As believers, we know that God makes all things beautiful in His time, but when we look around, we see brokenness, pain, and anything but beautiful things. It's hard to see how He is working in the mundane, the difficulties, and the pains of this life. So she takes the reader on a journey of finding the beauty in both familiar and unexpected places. 

She walks us through God's character, and how He is gently working to accomplish His will, even in the seemingly non-beautiful things. While some things will never be made right this side of heaven {what she refers to as "inconsolable things"}, we can still have confidence that God is not absent, but instead graciously crafting the beauty of His will and glory in our lives through redemption. And that sometimes the most beautiful things come from the "ugly" things.

Some of my favorite quotes from the book:
"God is still creating beauty. In fact, he is creating now a beauty that didn't exist at the earth's birth but that only began after Adam and Eve's devastating decision. It is the beauty of redemption, and because God is still creating, he is at this very moment weaving this beauty in us."
 "In our own barrenness, in the unanswered prayer, we must know that God may be silent, but he is never still."
"Dear heart, Jesus didn't say he'd save you from affliction. Instead he asked you to go all-in on a promise of unexpected beauty sprouting up through that very affliction."
"We must stay in the minor key as long as he has us there, because the Holy Spirit's conviction and kindness drawing us to repentance is evidence of his love, and repentance turns the music to a major key once again."
"God can make something beautiful out of you, even the most hopeless, broken-down thing in your life." 

You can get your copy at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, or

Thank you, Christine for choosing me {yet again} to be on your launch team. And thank you to Baker Publishing Group for providing me with an advanced copy of this book, in exchange for my honest review. 

Thursday, March 15, 2018

16 Weeks

How far along? 16 weeks
Days since transfer: 93 days
Total weight gain: +4.0
Maternity clothes? Not yet. But I feel like I could be close, especially for more comfort. And plus, it's finally getting warmer, so it's time for a bit of a wardrobe change anyway.
Sleep: Oh sleep. I have had quite a bit of insomnia this week. Which is just annoying. The plus side? I can feel little flutters in the wee hours of the night when I'm up :)
Best moment of the week: Seeing our sweet boy healthy and active on the ultrasound screen! {even if it was unplanned and in the ER} But really, to have confirmation that he was ok after a bleeding scare, was just about the best thing that could happen this week. It was so fun to see him do flips, do karate kicks, and then suck his thumb! Also, my mom has been in town for her spring break, so we have enjoyed LOTS of grandma time!
Cravings: Nothing really, this week. Although, guacamole sounds pretty good right now...
Symptoms: I had some off and on spotting and cramping that thankfully seem to have subsided for the most part. This week I actually felt pregnant. I feel like my belly officially popped out, and I am finding it harder and harder to find comfortable positions to be in. Now, if I could just get rid of the insomnia...
Looking forward to: Hopefully an uneventful weekend! Last weekend was a little too much "excitement" {with an ER visit}, so I am hoping for an actual quiet and relaxing weekend :)


Size of baby? About the size of an avocado, an eclair, a Coke can, or a Blackberry phone
Development: Lots going on this week! Baby is weighing 3 to 4 ounces, and his backbone and tiny muscles are gaining strength. He is starting to make a few expressive frowns and squints, and his eyes are able to perceive light. His skin is still translucent, but he has eyebrows and eyelashes. He can also hear my voice!
Heartbeat: In the 150s when I saw the midwife on Tuesday!
Movement: Every time we check in on him {doppler or ultrasound}, he is constantly moving. The flutters I feel are still pretty inconsistent...I am ready for some of those baby kicks! :)
Gender Predictions? It's a BOY! :)

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Doctor Follow Up

Today I had a follow up with my OB's office. I wasn't able to see my doctor, but they scheduled me with one of the midwives, and I really liked her. {Side Note: every time I meet with one of the midwives, I always appreciate my experience. I wish my body wasn't so weird and complicated, because I would totally do a birth with a midwife!}

Anyway, we got good news today, and I am so thankful! She confirmed that my ultrasound and labs from Friday looked really good. But in addition, she was able to confirm that I didn't show signs of a miscarriage {praise Jesus!} She couldn't tell me what caused the bleeding, and basically said that sometimes they just don't know. So they will monitor me and baby to make sure everything is progressing accordingly. I don't have any restrictions, and should feel more at ease.

And just as an extra confirmation, I got to hear our sweet boy's heartbeat...strong 150s! And of course, he was moving around like CRAZY  :)

I have had some more spotting this week, but it has been light, and nothing overly concerning. The cramps have also subsided, so that's a good thing. So for now, we just watch and wait. 

We are so thankful for a good report, and can't wait to see our sweet boy at our anatomy scan in a couple of weeks!

Friday, March 9, 2018

Another ER Visit

When I was 10.5 weeks with Eli and Maddie, I had a scary visit to the ER. Thankfully, everything turned out ok and my babies were just causing a little bit of trouble :)

Well, this little one is turning out to be just like his brother and sister. I woke up this morning with some bleeding and cramping, and I immediately started to panic. There really is no good way to describe the panic you feel when you start bleeding in pregnancy, especially when you have a history of loss. We just heard his heartbeat last week, and I have had zero complications with this pregnancy, so this came out of nowhere. 

I called my OB and she literally had just booked the last appointment of the day and they couldn't get me in until Monday {of course}. So they sent me to the ER. Which I am glad, because I probably would have gone on my own anyway. There's no way I would have been able to go the weekend without checking in on him in some way.

The ER staff at Baylor McKinney was really great, and I am thankful for the ability to access healthcare. They got me in for an ultrasound, and the sonographer was really great to let me see baby boy! They normally don't, and can't really tell patients anything {allowing the doctors to do that}, but she saw that he was looking good, so she let me see him. And boy was he active! He was all over the place haha. He would curl up into a ball and then kick his leg out {like a karate kick}, and then he'd do a few flips and suck his thumb :)  There are also no good ways to describe the relief you feel when you see your baby is doing really well!

They did a pelvic exam and ran blood work, and everything looked good. By definition, the ER doctor said he had to label me "threatened miscarriage." Which is TERRIFYING. I hate that. It's frustrating to not really have an answer or reason for the bleeding, but because baby boy was measuring right on track with a good heartbeat, and there were no signs of me progressing into labor, he really wasn't concerned. I will have to follow up with my OB on Monday, but I am just so thankful things look ok for now. 

There is a possibility it's another subchorionic hemorrhage {SCH}, as they saw a small one on my 8 week ultrasound.  It's what the issue was when I had to go to the ER with Eli and Maddie. And sometimes they don't know the reason. I did also have to get the Rhogam shot again {because of my blood type}. I would have had to have it later in the pregnancy, but they gave it to me early as a precaution.

Silly boy, already causing problems :)

So...not exactly how I planned to spend my Friday {I was in the ER 5 hours...which seriously pushed the limits of this hungry pregnant mama!}. Apparently my children like to give me panic attacks and keep me on my toes. So much for an uneventful pregnancy! But so, so thankful for God's protection.