Tuesday, December 31, 2024

Walk With Me Through 2024...

2024 was quite a year. It will easily be marked as one of the hardest, though I wouldn't have expected it, with how it started and all that seem to lay ahead. But each year is a gift, and as I look back over the years and sift through family photos, I am thankful for all the memories and the ways the Lord has provided for us. I will be going into 2025 with a heavy heart and new outlook, but I know that the Lord is kind and good. He will walk with me the same way He has so faithfully done year over year.


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January started with some fun snow days! The kids got to enjoy sledding and snowmen and snowball fights, and it was the perfect way to kick off the year. It was even more fun that Granny came to visit in the middle of the snow, so she got to enjoy it with us. I continued with our Acts Bible study, we had Mr. Jesse over for dinner, the kids and I made a trip to the National Gallery of Art, and Eli changed from navy to brown glasses. We got to enjoy some trains at a church members' house, the kids started helping more in the kitchen, and we finished up our swim lessons at Goldfish Swim School.

For Valentine's Day in February, we made some fun homemade valentines. Grandma and Papa came to visit, and we spent the time playing at the playground, visiting the Natural History Museum, playing games, watching the Super Bowl {Aiden's personal favorite}, and catching snowflakes on our tongues. We were also plugging away at school, working on bug projects, reading, spelling, and visiting the library. Eli was losing teeth right and left! Mike and I got to go on a double date with the Parkers for a marriage comedy night, which was fun.

In March, I was busy prepping for our When You Pray Bible study, and we were definitely looking forward to Spring weather. The kids were happy helpers in the yard, and we were enjoying as much warm, outside time as we could, though we still had some days in the 20s. Eli did get a new big boy bike, and he just could not have been beaming any bigger :)  Maddie and I got to go to the consignment sale and enjoy lunch together, and Aiden was my little laundry helper. Also in March, Uncle Michael and Miss Vi asked the kids to play a special role in their wedding: flower girl, ring bearer, and ring security!

We celebrated Easter in April. We made resurrection rolls, Eli drew his own Easter story book, and of course we rejoiced with our church family. We made another trip to Udvar-Hazy to see the new planes on display, and we got to see several planes land at Dulles airport from the observation deck. We also got to witness the partial solar eclipse, since we had 88% coverage. Mr. David was in town visiting, so he got to enjoy the event with us, special eclipse glasses and all. I reached a milestone in my migraine journey, marking 1 year since I first saw my neurologist. Eli got to spend time with Daddy building rockets at Boys Brigade, the kids started their soccer season again, and we got to pray over Mr. Jesse and Ms. Linda for their engagement. April is when they made the public announcement that Mike would be taking the role of Lead Pastor in the Fall.

In May, we celebrated Mother's Day with sweet homemade cards from the kiddos. We also finished up our second year of homeschooling! We got to spend some sweet time with Mr. Jesse before his big move to Hawaii, I wrapped up our women's ministry year with our spring brunch, and led a hike through the Bull Run Occoquan Trail. We had our annual church picnic, complete with the Fairfax County Fire Department spraying water for the kids, and Eli created his own board game. We also squeezed in a trip to Wegmeyer Farms to pick strawberries! I didn't blog about it, but May was also when we learned about the merger at work, and the possibility of my job changing became the forefront of our prayers.

June meant Texas, wedding, and anniversary festivities! We traveled to Texas to be with family for Michael and Vi's wedding, which was just a fun week, packed with all the wedding things. Maddie was a beautiful flower girl, and the boys were on top of their ring duties. My parents beamed with pride watching my brother marry his love, and Aiden had the best night of his life on the dance floor. After the newlyweds headed off to their honeymoon, we headed over to be with Mike's family to celebrate Tom and Susan's 50th wedding anniversary. It was a fast and furious week, but it was full of family and fun, and we are so thankful for the time we had. When we arrived back in Texas, Mike ended up with Covid, but thankfully he was better fairly quickly. The kids had their soccer field day, and then the Lilleys were in town to visit D.C., and it was so fun to spend time with their family. We celebrated Father's Day with kid-designed socks for Daddy, discovered raspberries growing in our backyard, and Aiden lost his first tooth. We started spending time at the pool, our deer came back, and our women's summer book club kicked off!

For the 4th of July, we celebrated with our neighbors with a fun cul-de-sac party, complete with sparklers. Mike and I got to enjoy a sweet anniversary dinner out at Capital Grille, thanks to kind and gracious babysitters. We discovered bird eggs in our birdhouse, and got to wait for them to hatch. We also got to enjoy VBS at church! We hosted our Catalyst young adults group, which was really fun to connect with them, and the boys really started to enjoy playing chess. Maddie took a tumble while running through the house, and poor girl chipped her front {permanent} tooth. Thankfully, we were able to get it repaired and not too much of the root was exposed. There was a lot of blood and it was pretty scary, but she was SO brave!

We wrapped up our summer reading in August {nothing like a little ice cream to motivate haha}. I also was able to make a solo trip to Texas to visit my grandparents in San Antonio. Because I flew into Dallas and drove to SA, I was able to have dinner with Michael and Vi and the girls, and now looking back, I am so, so thankful I was able to give Michael a hug then. We celebrated Aiden's 6th birthday with a knight-themed birthday. And then we kicked off our 2nd grade and 1st grade year of homeschool! Mike got to spend a week in Colorado for his annual pastor's retreat, and the kids and I got to do fun things at home like visit Udvar-Hazy. Eli finally graduated from eye-patching, and he got a trip to the LEGO store to celebrate! We spent more time at the pool, and the kids got to hike Great Falls Park with some friends.

By September I had been approved for a new rescue medication for my migraines, but was still trying to work through the right plan for what I was going to use and when. In anticipation of Mike's new role as Lead Pastor, the elders graciously granted him 3 weeks off. We were able to spend some time away as a family at a pastoral retreat center in the Shenandoah Valley for a few days. We got to play games, go on hikes, and visit caverns. We didn't make it to the National Park because we ended up having car trouble, but the Lord kept us safe and provided what we needed to get the car repaired in time to get us home. We had our fall church picnic {complete with dunk-a-pastor}, started reading the Narnia series, had a friend over for pizza and a movie, and visited Great Falls. September is when I received the confirmation that I would not have a position going forward in the merger, that I would finish out my time through the end of the year, and then be done with my role at Independent Financial.

The Great Pooh Exchange happened in October. Aiden was able to let go of his well-loved Pooh bear and exchange it for a brand new one. We did some pumpkin carving, and even baked the seeds {though no one was a fan of them, except me, but I can't eat them}. We did some of our school outside and at the library, and we welcomed Miss Lilly home on her fall break. We hosted our first outdoor movie night, which was so fun! Maddie started Pioneer Girls, and her little extrovert heart is loving it. I got to join our women on our annual women's retreat, and we celebrated the faithful service of Pastor Milt and Val at church. We got to trick or treat with ALL the grandparents, which was extra special and fun!

In November we celebrated Eli and Maddie's 8th birthday with trains and bunnies. Their birthday was extra special this year, because all 4 grandparents were in town to celebrate. In November, Mike officially became the Lead Pastor of Chantilly Bible Church, and our parents were in town for his installation service. Aside from trick-or-treating, birthday, and installation Sunday, we got to do a bonfire, Great Falls, Museum of the Bible, and Cox Farms with the grandparents. The kids were on cloud nine! For Thanksgiving, it was just the 5 of us, but the kids asked for a traditional meal, so we did the turkey, mashed potatoes, cranberries, and rolls. Mike and I got to attend the DTS Centennial celebration dinner with some CBC couples, we watched a squirrel eat through the pumpkins on our porch, and we celebrated Mike's birthday with homemade enchiladas and chocolate cake.

We started December like we usually do, with our Advent countdown. I built robots with my boys, I was wrapping up my last board meeting for work, and we were getting ready for Christmas. And then I got a text message that changed the course of our December. Overnight I found myself in Texas, saying goodbye to my brother, helping my parents plan a funeral, trying to offer words of comfort to my new sister-in-law and nieces. It was by far the longest 9 days of my life. But before I knew it, I was back in Virginia. We were surrounded by our beloved church family at Christmas Eve services, we were opening up gifts on Christmas morning and managing sick kids through the end of the year.


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I looked back at my words from last year: "whatever comes in the new year, we know that the Lord is good, and we are thankful for His constant faithfulness to us."

While my thoughts were on my personal health when I wrote those words, I still believe the words are true for the present circumstances. I want to be a woman of faith that can say, no matter what comes, Lord, You are good

Losing my brother was not on my 2024 {or anytime soon} plan. I would not have chosen this. I also would not have chosen my seasons of unemployment, infertility/loss, or health struggles. But every time, God has been faithful. He never left me, He faithfully walked with me. And I know He will do so now. Since I have been in valleys before, I know that I cannot simply rush to the mountaintop. It just doesn't work that way {unfortunately}. He has too much work to do while He's walking alongside me here. And it will be messy and sometimes ugly, and it won't be wrapped up in a nice little bow. But that's the beautiful part of the gospel and His love for us: it doesn't have to be. Because He is what is beautiful and good. And it is in the valley that we get to be led gently by our kind and loving Shepherd.

And so I will still praise Him for all He has done. For His goodness and faithfulness to us in 2024. For how He will walk with us into the new year, no matter what comes


"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads my in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death,
I will fear no evil.
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, 
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
forever."

- Psalm 23

 

{iPhone Rewind} :: December

Mike took Maddie to Pioneer Girls, so I got a night with the boys. They chose watching How the Grinch Stole Christmas and building robots!

Granny had left us 5 Christmas presents to open in December, and we were so excited to find Christmas mugs with our names on them! Perfect for hot chocolate :)

This girlie LOVES meats haha {and writing about it}

Aiden said wistfully, "I wish I had this much money..." One day, buddy. One day.


**The rest of the photos in December are marked with the loss of my brother. I still haven't quite figured out if or when or how I will blog about this time, but I do know that there are ways the Lord took care of us that I do not want to forget. So for now, I will put some photos of family and the kids here.**

I am SO PROUD of these 3. They are such troopers, and they did so great with all the last minute travel. And I can't tell you how many people were shocked that Mike was handling all 3 by himself {it actually started to annoy me}. I had zero worries, because I knew he would do just fine {if not better than I could}. And he did. 

Sweet cousins who had matching Christmas pajamas and cookie decorating waiting for our kids when they got off the plane in Texas.

Sweet Airalyn turned 13 the day Michael went into the hospital, so we wanted to be sure to find a time to still celebrate her. She LOVES claw machines, so we spent the afternoon at ClawZania!

In all the last minute rush, Maddie ended up in Texas without pajamas! And even when I was going through all the clothes, I missed it completely as well, so poor girl had to wear her brother's shirt. She was a good sport, and Aiden was ok with it...only because it wasn't garbage day ;)

My kids have brought so much laughter and joy to a hard few weeks, but they have also brought their love and gentleness. I have been amazed at their sensitivity and how they have cared for the adults with their love and hugs.

We have received an outpouring of love and support from our own church family, even while we were in Texas. But when we arrived home, there was more waiting for us. From meals and cards to flowers and love gifts for flights, we have been overwhelmed by the body of Christ and its care for us. 

The normal Christmas activities we had planned didn't happen in the same way, but we still made a little time to do a few things for the kids. On the morning of Christmas Eve, we let them paint some Christmas ornaments.

Living their best Christmas Eve life :)

A hawk came to visit us on Christmas!

We had 2 down sick the day after Christmas...

Eli helped Mike up at the church, and he was so proud of his work :)

This is the medication insert for my Stelara. Granted, a lot of it is directions for use. But there are a lot of fine print warnings too. It's just a lot of small print, front and back. I just try not to think too much about it...

The last few days of the year have been pretty rough. Mike was pretty much the only one left standing, and we have seen who is a good sick person and who...definitely is not haha.


Thursday, December 26, 2024

Christmas 2024

Christmas was different this year, but we did our best to keep it as normal as we could for the kids. Despite the heaviness and sadness surrounding the holiday, we were all grateful for our Savior and the chance to celebrate His birth and the whole reason for His coming. 

Mike preached Christmas Eve, and we held 3 candlelight services. The kids and I went to the earlier service, and it was such a blessing to be with our church family again. Pastor John read a Christmas book for the kids, and had them join him on stage, which was so sweet and fun for them.


Our friend C came to Christmas Eve service!


Christmas morning, we ate cinnamon rolls {thank you, Pillsbury} and then we opened our stockings and presents. It seems like we always have a kid sick on Christmas. Thankfully it wasn't poor Aiden again, but this time it was Maddie girl. Poor girlie was pretty miserable, but she did seem to rally enough to get her presents from under the tree and open them ;) 





The kids were SUPER excited about their stocking stuffers {simple things I had collected throughout the year}, and it made me think we probably didn't really need gifts haha!










A sweet family in our Community Group had provided an entire Christmas meal for us, and we were able to enjoy that together. It meant so much that they had cared for us in that way, and it was such a gift that I didn't have to think about what I was going to feed my family on Christmas. It was so kind and generous, and I know that I felt incredibly loved and cared for.

Later in the day, we got to do Skype/Zoom calls with Grandma/Papa/Aunt Vi/cousins and Granny/Grumpz. We wish that we could be with everyone, but we are thankful that we could still "see" everyone and talk with them even being so far away.

This wasn't the Christmas we imagined, but we are thankful for how the Lord is caring for us in this season. We are thankful for Emmanuel, God with us.


Merry Christmas!



Sunday, December 15, 2024

See You Soon, Michael

There really is no good or easy way to make this post, and there is so much I still have to process. I am even backdating this post, because I just want to mark it here since my posts may not make a lot of sense otherwise. And while I know that the sequence or accuracy of my blog ultimately doesn't matter, I know that I will want a record of this time. Not because I want to remember the hard and the terrible things that have happened. But because the Lord has been so kind and gracious to take care of us in the midst of it all. And that is what I want to remember. 

So for now, I will just copy and paste the post I made on social media to let our family and friends know of what happened to Michael. But the short version? I got a text message on Friday saying that they were taking him to the ER, there were no extra details. By that night, I was booking a flight to Texas. I arrived Saturday morning, and we said our goodbyes on Sunday. Helping my parents plan my brother's funeral was not at all something I ever thought I would do. My brain is still trying to catch up, and it feels too big right now to process. So I'm just trying to take it one day at a time.

I am so very thankful that Michael is with Jesus, that he is whole and healthy and healed. That we are not grieving without hope. I am thankful for the outpouring of love and support and prayers that have surrounded us in these hard days, both in Texas and Virginia. We have been overwhelmed by the body of Christ and how they have shown up to mourn with and care for us during this time. In ways that I didn't even know we needed because I was just too tired or shocked to know. I am thankful for how the Lord has offered His comfort and strength and guidance in every step. I know that He is near, and that He will be in the days ahead.



From social media:

The last 48 hours have been a whirlwind of shock and disbelief and grief. On Friday, my brother Michael experienced a massive hemorrhagic stroke in his brain stem. There really are no words to describe our family’s heartbreak and loss. Anyone who knew my brother, knew that he would give you his right arm if you needed it, so it was no surprise to learn that he chose to be an organ donor. Today, in the midst of the heartache, we get to witness light and hope as my brother (true to character) selflessly gifts life.

As we are in the midst of this Advent season, I cannot help but feel the overwhelming weight of the darkness now. How this is absolutely not how it is supposed to be. A mother and father should never have to bury their son. A new bride should not have to say goodbye to her groom.

But Jesus…

John 1:4-5
In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

Emmanuel, God with us, came to shine light into this darkness. He came so that one day, all these awful things would be undone. The darkness has not overcome the light. As my kids’ Advent devotional says, “He will make the wrong things right, and the dark things light.”

I don’t know why this happened. And oh man, does it hurt. But I do know that death and darkness do not get the final word. We do not grieve without hope. Michael is rejoicing with his beloved Savior. One day, there will be no more suffering, no more tears.

I love you, bud. I’m so proud of you and how you chose to serve and love people one last time. They’re giving you a whole honor walk and flying a flag. That AND your masters degree?? You win. See you soon ❤️



Sunday, December 1, 2024

Advent 2024

I thought maybe we would be moving on from our Advent Blocks this year, but the kids were definitely still asking for them this year when we were unpacking our Christmas decorations. So we will use them to countdown to Christmas again, along with the other things I had planned.



For school, we will be walking through the All Creation Waits book. It's less a Jesus-centered book, and more a creation-centered book. Each day walks through a different animal and how it prepares for winter. While it's not a typical Advent guide, it reminds us that every good thing that God gives is worth waiting for.



For our family Advent time at dinner, we will use our Advent Wreath again. We will use An Advent Journey from Focus on a Family, which is what our church is walking through. We will also watch the Bible Project's Word Study Advent Series each Sunday.



For my own personal study, I will be reading through this book that I received as a gift from our women's ministry director. 



I have most of my Christmas shopping done, but still have quite a bit on the Christmas "to-do" list. It's definitely going to be a busy season. But I am hopeful that we can keep our hearts and minds focused more on the joy of the season, as we anticipate the coming of our King. I'm thankful for Advent, and the chance to quiet our hearts in the midst of the busy holiday season.