Thursday, March 6, 2025

Health Check-In :: Colonoscopy

In January, I was working through a Shingles diagnosis and needed to take a second round of the anti-viral. Thankfully, I was cleared after that round, and then I was able to get back on Stelara. The time that I was off Stelara, which was about 3 weeks, I didn't have a migraine, which was a huge blessing! And also a major confirmation of how much I hate the side effects of this medication.

I had also had an MR Enterography, which showed inflammation in my ileum, so my GI wanted to do a colonoscopy to further evaluate. The prep for a colonoscopy is never fun, and because this one was scheduled later in the day, I had more fasting time. Which sadly triggered the return of my migraines. Thankfully, I was able to take my rescue med before I had to drink the prep, so it was able to circulate in my body long enough to work and carry me through the whole process.

I had the generic of Suprep this time, and the downside was that it tasted sweeter than the name brand, which made it harder to get down. But my overall increased water intake over the past year made the additional 32 ounces of water after each round a walk in the park! I still had to sit in front of a heater outside the bathroom, because the massive amount of liquid in a short time made my whole body shiver with cold. But the upside is that I got more sleep overnight, and ultimately made it through.

Bottoms up!


When I got out of the procedure, my GI was actually very pleased with what he saw. He said that things looked better than what he expected, and that he wasn't overly concerned. That we would wait on the biopsy results and then make decisions from there.

The biopsy results came back with no evidence of pre-cancerous changes {huge praise!}. But we still have the discrepancy between the MRE and colonoscopy. He spoke with the radiologist, who is theorizing that the inflammation is deeper than what the colonoscopy can show on the surface. Because all of my other markers are good right now {no symptoms, good biopsy results, good labs}, the plan is to keep my medication the same and monitor things. I don't love the idea of inflammation simmering under the surface {literally}, because long term inflammation causes damage. But there's not much else I can do about it, except pray. Pray that Stelara continues to target the inflammation, or that other issues become apparent so that we can address them more specifically {hence the monitoring}.

So for now, I praise God for no cancer and no surface inflammation. I praise Him for no symptoms and good labs. And I will continue praying for remission to hold and strength to endure the side effects in the meantime. And a cure. Always praying for a cure for this awful disease...



Friday, February 28, 2025

{iPhone Rewind} :: February

We got to celebrate Chinese New Year with our church members!

Maddie and Daddy :)

Maddie's drawing of Mrs. Amy C haha.

Geography time!

We had a genuine ice day!

Aiden: is that what you are going to wear?
Me: umm...yes...? I was planning on it. Is this not ok?
Aiden: well, maybe you could pick something else.
Apparently my fashion choices are not 6-year-old approved.

My football-loving boy enjoying the Super Bowl!

We got some more snow days too. I was sick in bed, but the kids got to play in it a little before it melted.

Brothers at the library :)

Maddie drama at the library haha

These ranunculus made me so happy :)

Celebrating Valentine's Day with a few little treats :)

Learning the Fruits of the Spirit!

Drawing the planets for Science

The kids have been making and playing "hideout" haha

We are taking advantage of the glimpses of warmer weather, wishing for Spring to come!!

They wanted to surprise us by decorating the dinner table :)

Haha!

Comparing the Imperial system to the metric system
Me: most countries in the world, the military, and most scientists use the metric system
Eli: so then why don't we use it?
Me: that's a GREAT question, buddy! ;)



Tuesday, February 11, 2025

Pinewood Derby Race!

The kids have been building pinewood derby cars, the boys with Mike during the Father/Son program, and Maddie during Pioneer Girls. They came up with their designs, cut and painted their cars, added wheels and weights {all with help}, and it all led up to the big race day!

They were all so proud of their cars! This was their first go at designing cars, and they were all going for fun colors. And I love that they did most of the design and work themselves, just getting help with the big tools. 







Maddie's group was up first. Sweet girl was just happy to be with her friends, which was good because her little car was just not very fast haha. I'm so thankful she didn't seem to mind and that she had a great time!



I love seeing her with her little friends...but why is she so tall??


The boys were up next! Both of their cars did fairly well, with Eli's winning a few heats. Both boys were also just excited to be part of the race, and they had fun too. Eli came in 3rd place overall, and I was a little surprised that Aiden wasn't further up in the rankings, based on the heats he won. Poor little guy was pretty upset that he didn't get a trophy, but it was a good opportunity to learn good sportsmanship, and he did a great job cheering on his brother and the other boys.







Overall, the kids had fun building and racing their cars, and they are looking forward to racing next year!




Sunday, February 9, 2025

Hello 40

Well, I am officially 40! :)

I am so thankful for a sweet birthday and for reaching such a big milestone! Mike and the kids made the day special, and I was so thankful for all of the birthday wishes from family and friends throughout the day. 

Unfortunately, I ended up sick {hello 40?}, so we are rescheduling my birthday dinner. And I get to plan a fun trip later this year, so the birthday festivities continue!











I had not dreaded 40 in the traditional sense. I don't necessarily fear getting older; I am actually grateful for the growth and maturity that have come with the years of aging. I just don't fret about the things that my 20 year old self used to, because they just don't matter the same as they did then. While my physical body may feel every bit of its years {and more}, I am thankful for the advantage of hindsight and wisdom and experience that comes with aging. I can appreciate feeling more comfortable in one's own skin, knowing more of who you are, and feeling confident in the life you live. 

That's not to say I have all of the answers and always feel confident in all of my decisions. I am currently in a season of unknowns {again}, not knowing what is around the corner, and still wrestling with what it looks like to trust the Lord. But in my years of walking with the Lord, I have gained the advantage of seeing His goodness and faithfulness on full display in countless situations, and I can walk in more confidence, simply because I have walked with Him longer. 

That's a gift that I didn't have 30 years ago, when brand-new baby Christian Erin didn't know anything else but that she wanted to follow Jesus. 

A gift that I didn't have 20 years ago, when growing Christian Erin was stepping out into the world and learning the reality of walking by faith and trusting her Savior. 

A gift that I didn't have 10 years ago, when struggling Christian Erin was crying out for answers in the midst of another season of unknowns and grief and loss, trying desperately to hold on to the truths she knew when nothing around her made sense.

As I think back on 40 years of life, 30 years of walking with the Lord, I am just overwhelmed with gratitude for all that the Lord has done. For His goodness and faithfulness to me over the years, and for His patience and long suffering with me. It's really hard to put into words, so I will say is that I am entering my 40s just incredibly thankful. 

As grateful as I am, celebrating on my birthday was still hard. There was a phone call that was decidedly missing from the day, and the reality of hitting a milestone he won't was really difficult to grapple with. So it was a bittersweet day, for sure. But I can still praise God for the gift of a new year, be thankful for each new day, and I can be thankful for how the Lord continues to take care of us, offering sweetness and grace in the midst of the tears.

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And as for that 40 Before 40 List...I kept thinking that I had plenty of time to check these things off. And then all of a sudden, I had 6 months left and not enough time at all!  Oh well :)

But even when I made the list, I knew that some would be a bit of a stretch, a bit of a dream to cross off. And some of these items have become out of reach for varying life circumstance reasons. But that's ok. I was still able to cross a few off, and the Lord has been so gracious to me over the past decade, even without crossing some of these off. Even looking at the list now, I'm wondering why some of these were so important at the time. I guess it's just fun to have a list of things to think and dream about.   


Finish a full year of hand lettering challenges - nope
Achieve and maintain remission for Crohn's - but does it count if I lost it right before my birthday?? Sigh.
Renew and use my passport - I don't even know where mine is...
Make a wise investment - I think buying our house should count
Take a photography class - the course is sitting in my inbox still...
Go on a train ride - does the steam train at Dollywood count?
Enjoy a fun girls' weekend away - this is coming!!
Take a self-defense class - nope
Go on a hot air balloon ride - haha nope
See the Grand Canyon - double haha nope
Read The Lord of the Rings Trilogy - this should have been an easy one, such a missed opportunity!
Become flexible enough to do the splits - Ok. I actually tried this one for awhile. And then decided "why?"
Finish our baby clothes quilt - still on my "very much want to do" list
Hug a redwood - nope
Take a cooking class - nope
Complete a 9000 piece puzzle - I didn't realize how expensive these are haha
Enjoy a white Christmas - timing hasn't been right
Join a book club - I'm counting our women's summer book club, especially since I led it last summer!
Recreate a childhood photo - this one made me tear up...because I had plans to do this with my brother. I had the exact photo in mind too. Don't put stuff off, guys. 
Release a floating lantern - I know the festival I want to go to. Just need to plan it and get a babysitter!
Serve in a new ministry - nope. I think I found the ones I'm supposed to be in for now.
Pay for a stranger's meal - nope
Watch the sunrise in a beautiful place - I think the hills of West Virginia are pretty beautiful.
Dip my toes in the Atlantic Ocean - not yet
Visit the 5 states bordering Virginia 
{Tennessee, Kentucky, West Virginia, Maryland, North Carolina}
Have a professional makeup lesson - nope
See a play - nope
Celebrate my 20 year friendiversary with Laura {2024} - again, such a missed opportunity!
Disciple a younger mom - I have tried, but nothing formal.
Write a children's book with my mom - nope. And what?
Undertake a home renovation project - does having our kitchen and floors redone count?
Finish and order our 13th year photo book - I am SO far behind on our family photo books...
Read the letter I wrote to myself to open on my 39th birthday...and write one to open on my 49th birthday - this was fun to read :)



Saturday, February 1, 2025

Health Check-In :: Shingles

I recently posted about some of my health stuff, and I have had some updates. There is a reason this is a chronic illness and it is considered a health journey. Because there is always something, and it's never settled. So I take a deep breathe and get ready for the next round of whatever comes next. And while that can be overwhelming and frustrating at times, I am thankful the Lord walks with me in every part of the journey.


MR Enterography Results
Even though all of my blood test inflammation markers from earlier in the month were within normal range, the MRE showed mild active inflammation at the terminal ileum. In other words, my Crohn's is likely active again. There was a mild luminal narrowing noted {most likely caused by scarring, which we were aware of}, but the good news is that my bowel is not obstructed.

The MRE also showed small benign hepatic cysts, as well as a gallbladder polyp. My GI wasn't concerned about these, and they are consistent with abnormal growths that I tend to have within my body. {Isn't that lovely?}

I will need a colonoscopy so that my GI can further evaluate and take biopsies at the inflammation site. It will be interesting to see if he can even reach the site to biopsy, because he wasn't able to last time, due to the scarring. My hope is that, because the inflammation is milder this time, that will allow easier access.

Sigh. Definitely wasn't expecting that. It brings up SO many questions, but I am trying not to let my mind run ahead until we have more information. 

And so much for avoiding a colonoscopy haha!


6-Month Skin Check + Shingles
I had my normal skin check last week, and thankfully all looked good from that. But a week prior to that appointment, I had an itchy spot on my back. I had just assumed it was an intense bug bite. When the dermatologist asked about it, I told him just that, but he said that no, it was Shingles {!} He asked if I had had any recent stress {ha!}, which is what probably brought it on. I am so thankful I had this appointment already scheduled, because I would have just ignored the spot, still thinking it was a bug bite. So we caught it early, and I was able to start an anti-viral {Valtrex} right away.

When I first started the Valtrex, my ears were clogged for several days, and it kind of felt like I was in a tunnel {super strange}. It also has not been kind to my GI system. It has caused off and on dizziness and my insides have not been happy all week. But the worst part is that I had to stop taking my Stelara. I was due for my shot the day I was diagnosed with Shingles, and I was not able to take it. My GI wants me to wait until I am cleared of the Shingles before I resume taking Stelara. Both medications suppress the immune system, so taking them at the same time would significantly increase my risk of developing serious infections. It would be very difficult for me to beat Shingles if I continue taking Stelara. I hate missing doses, especially knowing that I have active inflammation right now, but I need to get rid of the Shingles.

I followed up with my GP yesterday, and unfortunately, it's not clearing up in the way they would hope. Thankfully, it's not getting worse or spreading, which is a huge praise. And I am incredibly lucky that I am not experiencing any pain. But even though I stopped taking the Stelara, I am still immunosuppressed, so it's likely taking my body more effort to fight off the Shingles. So she extended my treatment, and I will go back next week to see if there's any more improvement.

In the meantime, I will fight through another week of feeling yucky and praying that the Shingles starts to heal so I can avoid another extension and get back on my Stelara treatment.

We're just going ALL IN on this old lady thing, huh? ;)
 


Friday, January 31, 2025

{iPhone Rewind} :: January

We were late to see Christmas lights, but we decided to pack up the kids and drive through the Bull Run Festival of Lights on New Years Day. It was still fun and totally worth it :)

January was filled with lots of snow!

Math is tough, but Aiden works really hard

Hands down my favorite card from my brother's service. The one that made me laugh and cry {in a good way} the hardest.

We made Viking ships for History!

"Mommy, take my picture!"

The kids are making pinewood derby cars! Step 1: design, cutting, and sanding :)

Learning map grids in Geography

Mommy/Daughter Pizza & Movie Night with Pioneer Girls. Loved getting to spend time with this sweet girl and her friends {and their moms}

Sequence with Daddy :)

Math time! Counting that money :)