The Announcement That Didn't Happen...

Today would have been the day that we announced our pregnancy publicly. We would have passed the first trimester and would have been sharing our joy with the world. We had our special announcement picked out and ready to go. It should have been a day of celebrating.

But today there is no announcement to be made. Instead there are only tears. We're back at square one, back to waiting. The day will come and go, and instead of joy and excitement, or the anticipation of all that was to come, we grieve all that we have lost. Today our nursery sits unfinished and empty...

These "milestones" are hard. And we have so many left to go. So many "should haves" that aren't going to happen. I wish I had some brave words of faith and strength. But honestly, today is just too hard. We do still trust the Lord and His goodness. But today we lean on His strength and care for us as we grieve the loss of our little ones and the announcement that didn't happen today...