I Need You

It's Friday. And the weekend can't get here fast enough. My to-do list is a mile long and growing. My completely Type A personality had to map out my next 2 weeks just so I could keep it all straight...and I ended up more discouraged and depressed afterward as I realized how every slot of time is filled. The hours are slipping away and it seems like the only way to get it all done is to eliminate (even more) sleep. I mean, you don't need that much, do you? Sigh. Overwhelmed seems to be the theme for today.

As I work away on quarterly reports, I have my Pandora station playing worship music in an effort to encourage and uplift my weary heart. And God is ever faithful to step in when I need Him. To hold me and offer grace where I so desperately need it. My prayer today has been that I not let Satan steal my joy. Because really I just want to sit in a corner and cry right now (the day's not over and it may still happen haha). And I don't feel very joy-filled right now. Life isn't bad. Life is actually really good. It's just busy right now, I'm tired, and I feel stressed. I haven't felt like this in a long time, and I find myself battling old habits- worry, self-dependence, a need to control things, lack of trust, etc. And I am reminded just exactly how much I need Him...

My wings are all worn out
I’m walking in the wilderness
And I cannot get out

I need You, oh I need You
Blessed savior come
I need You, oh I need You
Fill the every longing of my soul

Oh how I need You Lord
I need Your perfect word
With tearful eyes I see
The sin that I afford
I need to weep and pray
For all the thousand ways
That I have failed You just today

And my bed is soaked with sadness
My sadness has no end
A downward spiral of despair
That I keep falling in

I need You, oh I need You
To You my soul shall fly
I need You, oh I need You
Yahweh how I love you more than life

Oh how I need You Lord
I need Your perfect word
With tearful eyes I see
The sin that I afford
I need to weep and pray
For all the thousand ways
That I have failed You just today

Your silence is like death to me
So won’t You hear my desperate plea

Today my soul is soaring
Way over mountains high
Though I can see the valleys
They are all just passing by
Its not that I am stronger
Look at my feeble wings
But I’ve been lifted higher
Yahweh’s lifted me in His own strength

Oh how I love You Lord
I love your perfect word
With tearful eyes I see
The God who always will endure
Now I will celebrate
For all the thousand ways
That you have shown me grace

And made my heart in grace to stay
You made my heart in grace to stay
Lord, make my heart in grace to stay
I need You, oh I need You