Back Here Again

Things are hard. I am dangerously close to a place I never wanted to be again. Who knew that doing God's will could include perceived failures? Does God mean to bring us to our breaking points? I am back on my knees, back standing before His throne, wondering what He's doing now. What else does He want from me?!?!  After I say amen, all I can do is let the tears mix with the rain...