So. The whole
hyperventilation thing is still a concern. My life is still crazy and doesn't
seem to want to slow down anytime soon. But God is my life support and He is
pulling me through. Ok. So maybe it is more like He is dragging me at this
point. Not because I don't want to do something. But because I don't have
enough energy on my own. Haha. It's actually quite a comical mental picture if
you think about it...
God is doing amazing
things. I can feel it in my soul. I have seen the manifestation of His
blessings in my life in countless ways in the last few weeks. And I also feel
as though He has more planned for me. More than I could have ever asked for,
more than I could have ever dreamed of. I am reaching the end of a chapter in
my life. I was given the amazing opportunity to spend 4 amazing years at Baylor
University. In my last few days here, I walk across campus praising God for all
He has done. I look at the beautiful buildings that make up what I have called
home for the last 4 years and I can't help but be filled with sadness over leaving this place. So I try to savor every last moment that I have to walk
across campus. And yet, I have an extreme sense of excitement about the new
chapter in my life. A sense of excitement of the impending plans God has for
me. I still am not sure what those plans are; and I am ok with that. I feel as
though in not revealing the details to me as of yet, God is giving me a sweet
gift. The gift of enjoying the last drops of this season. The gift of knowing
the joy of seeking His face. The gift of feeling the peace He gives to His
children.
I am beginning to see
His hand move. Don't misunderstand me; God's hand has been moving all along.
It's just that in my sinful state, I am just now able to see the forest through
the trees, if you will. God is revealing more and more of Himself to me, and I
feel as though my soul is awakening again. Maybe it's the fact that in one
month, the stress of school will be over. Maybe it's the fact that in one
month, I start a new phase of life. Maybe it's the fact that God has been doing
a lot of shaping, molding, disciplining, teaching in the last few months. Who
knows. What I do know, is that my God is good and there is nothing else that
compares to Him. There is nothing in this world that even come close to
comparing to knowing Him. I am His and He is mine.
COUNTDOWN
TO GRADUATION: 30 days!!!